Momma, your back is growing breasts !

Oh my goodness! When my daughter said those words to me after she busted in on me while I was putting on a shirt, I swallowed my Juicy Fruit gum. She looked so dramatic and serious and I knew that she was indeed serious about my "new body parts." I knew at that point I needed to do something about my weight. I didn't want my baby to think that the rite of passage for a woman was to grow breasts on her back too. LOL

I scarred my baby! LMBO!

                             (My baby at Disney World--Mother's Day weekend 2011 Fun!)

 You know there are defining moments in everyone's life and that was mine. How did I allow myself to get this big? A woman who once ran every morning (regardless of the weather) has transition into a couch potato eating OREOs.  Her innocent statement only confirmed what was going on in my head.  I knew what I needed to do---and that was to seriously take charge of my life and change my lifestyle for the good. My blood pressure had been steadily high for a few years and I just haven't felt great. I had two serious illnesses in a span of two years-one landing me in the hospital. I had no energy for anything but work. I had become a shell of the once active Carolyn and I hated that!


In the past, I have attempted to lose weight for many different reasons. I have allowed different variables to motivate me but I learned over time that true motivation lies within.  See, I'm losing weight for myself. I want to feel better and not wake up without any energy caused by the extra pounds.  I don't want my knees to feel like someone cracked them with a nutcracker every night. I hated going to the doctor's office and hear how lousy my blood pressure was..Ugh!  Oh I love my honey but I'm not even losing it for him because I know he'll love me regardless. I know he's at his happiest when I' m happy and the  key to my complete  happiness right now is getting healthier.  How can you truly be happy when you are unhealthy?

I simply want to lose weight for the betterment of Carolyn. I seriously started my journey in February. I am proud of my effort. I give GOD all the glory! My metabolism was so messed up that it took literally 2 months for me to get it back working. There were days that I wanted to say forget this mess because my scale didn't budge. However, I couldn't neglect the fact that I was feeling better. I was sold on this healthier lifestyle when I went to the doctor in April and was told that my blood pressure was now normal. It went down 15 points.

Well, I have lost over 10 percent of my body fat and I'm taking this journey one day at a time.  I'm not concern about losing my weight fast as long as I continue to lose and feel great. I have learned to look at other markers to judge my success...(Inches lost--Energy level--Muscle gain--blood pressure check--). Gosh, I am working out 6 days and going to fitness classes. I have begun a marathon training program. I am so excited of the possibilities.

(Me with my awesome Zumba instructor and  some of her students celebrating our June birthdays)

Next time, I will share some specifics of what I'm doing and my thoughts. I have kept a food journal since February and have at times recorded my thoughts in my journal. I now feel brave enough to share with you my struggles and successes on this blog.  I'm all about helping others. If my crazy ramblings help anyone, then it will be worth it.  I believe I'm on this journey for a reason. Everything in my life (just about) comes so easy for me with this ONE exception. I so struggle in this area.  This test of mine will be a testimony to help others and that's what I intend to do. I'm not the guru but I'm just a woman battling to take control of my life and lose my back breasts...or BB's. LOL

Until next time...

~Cy~

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