Cleaning the cobwebs!

Hello World, I feel like it's been forever since I blogged online. Yes. I still have my random thoughts and now with all the great technology, I have been video blogging. However, I don't think anything takes the place of putting your thoughts down on paper or the world wide web.

As I read through some of my old blogs, I became so disgusted in myself. I was on this journey four years ago gung ho--ready to get fit and trim. Then life happened as it always does and Popeye chicken, Starbucks and Dairy Queen became my sweet places of food haven. Please don't tell me otherwise. It's a challenge to lose and keep your weight off. I wish I could just tell a geni in a bottle to wipe all of this cottage cheese pounds off me in one blink. Life would be SO much more simpler.

After going through some of my own food journals and logging back onto Fitness Pal, I became so perplexed to why I kept falling off in terms of losing weight. I mean this confusion led me to believe for a week that I had a mental illness, and I began looking up fat girl summer intervention camps to go to. True story.
However, the absurdity didn't stop there. It continued in my doctor's office. Funny story. I told my doctor jokingly during my checkup that I thought based on reading something on WebMD that I might have a food addiction..lol Three days later, an addiction counselor called me and I set up an appointment to see her. I mean I didn't think my doctor took me seriously or even listened to everything I say. Mental Note: Be careful what I say around Dr. B.

I went to the addiction counselor appointment thinking maybe I really do have a problem..lol When my mind gets set on something, I will ride it into the ground. So, I proceeded to go confidently into her office because just the night before, I research all about food addictions and almost started an anonymous online food addiction  group because if my doctor took my jesting seriously and set up an appointment, maybe just maybe I had an issue.

  So, I paid my 30 dollars copay. I was bummed about that..lol She asked me all of these questions and then after an hour (on the dot), she told me that I didn't have a food addiction. My problem was situational and I needed to make time to change some things. Basically she called me lazy but in a nice way. lol I promise you...I was too through because I just paid 30 dollars and I wanted her to fix my problem. Tell me that I am addicted to food at least my failure in this area would make more sense. Sighs! I mean....Come on!

 I'm back on the journey with 24 extra pounds to lose on top of the ones I need to lose. Yeah...I know...LOL I was doing so well. Believe me when I say I know.

I just wanted to check in with you all. Take care and I promise....I'll be back sooner..lol